repeating myself

A couple of days ago I said something that I haven't said in a year: 'I know it's coming, I know I'll be leaving, but I just don't fully believe it.'

A year ago that was my answer to people when they asked if I was excited about going to Scotland. That I just didn't fully believe it was going to happen. And those few days ago when I said it again, it was in response to going home. I know it's coming. I have a plane ticket, I have a date, but it still feels like it's forever in the future. That future will come and go and turn into the past before I know it. That's what happened with coming here. But it's still the case that I just don't fully believe that I'm going to be leaving Aberdeen and going back to California; and depending on life, job, and finances, I won't be back to Aberdeen until the end of November for graduation...it's weird to think about. I probably won't fully believe it until I've been in California for a while...

But then I'm reminded that I'm not supposed to be thinking about it quite yet, as I still have two more chapters and a conclusion to write for this dissertation before any of that happens. Oh well...time for thinking later. Back to writing/reading with me.

Cheers